[Verse 1]


              
The first boy 

              
I kissed was i

             
n a close frie

     
nd's pool
              
A bet from the

             
 boys, thank G

              
od he pulled t


hrough
            
He got thumps 

             
on the back, I

        
 felt uneasy w

ith that
              
And walked hom

   
e, touching my

 lips like a b

ruise
              
The first guy 

              
I let touch my

             
 skin with mor

           
e than his eye

s
              
Left her with 

              
ghosts I still

            
 speak to at n

ight
            
That say I was

             
n't strong eno

             
ugh for what I

              
 thought was t

   
ough love
          
And years late

r, I learned i

t wasn't fine

     

[Verse 2]
             
I used to love

             
 the way all c

       
hoirs sound
              
But something 

             
about them's d

          
ifferent now
            
See, the churc

             
h, it just cla

             
ims too many t

      
hese days
             
My friends' li

              
vеs were worth

             
 less than thе

   
ir gowns
              
Being judged f

              
rom the pews t

             
hrough stained

       
-glass art
              
At my faith fl

              
ailing like a 

            
flag at half-m

ast
            
But with young

             
 boys unsafe a

             
nd the unjust 

 
ordained
             
I won't pray t

             
o dusty pages 

        
of the past


[Verse 3]
              
I'd like to be

              
lieve there's 

             
more than just

 
 us
              
I'm an atheist

             
 who enjoys th

  
e stars
            
Not the ones i

             
n magazines my

             
 mother reads 

          
but never keep

s
             
Sometimes, I m

             
umble prayers 

      
in my sleep
              
I used to be s

             
cared of midni

    
ght silhouette

s
              
That my coat r

              
ack was a murd

             
erer standing 

      
by my bed
            
But these days

             
, I'm so lonel

             
y, instead of 

   
a scream
              
I'd probably a


sk him to hold

 me instead