[Chorus]
 
Girl, I hope y

ou understand
 
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

              
ur man back th

  
en
            
And you knew I

              
 fell for you 

       
but you

Just broke my heart in two
       
I was sad, mad

 and broken on

 my bed
 
Hoping I get r

id of all the 

voices in my h

ead


[Verse 1]
       
I was opening 

a packet of an

 undeveloped m

ed
            
When I was met

 with a prescr

iption of a bu

llet made of l

ead
            
And when I wok

e up in an hou

r in a pool of

 my own sweat
            
I said, "I swe

ar to God I'll

 never even tr

y to sleep aga

in"
      
So instead I t

ook my pen and

 started writi

ng evidencе
             
And when I sta

rted making se

nsе

I found that I had reached the end
          
Oh, I'm upset,

 I have no fri

ends

You wanna bet you're just pretend?
              
You're just a 

 
pet confined w

ithin the line

s of writing

You're not shit
            
I thought I st

              
opped my psych

         
opathic ways, 

I swear I did
             
I said I talke

              
d to people 'b

              
out the proble

 
matic life I l

ived
              
They were my n


eighbors, razo

r blades
              
And different 

  
flavored pills

 I hit
              
Therefore I'm 


at surely my l

ast straw
        
I'm so gassed,

 stuck in the 

past, I said t

hat


[Chorus]
 
Girl, I hope y

ou understand
 
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

              
ur man back th

  
en

So far I never

 held you with

 my arms

So it's hard t

o be the one y

ou aren't

With instead f

illed with anx

iety

Always was a p

art of me, gue

ss I'm not cut

 out to be


[Verse 2]

Somebody 'caus

e it's not me
              
I'm not used t

              
o all the talk

             
, it was an in

trovert

That had converted feelings in the writing
        
Used to cope w

ith all my pro

blems

Using notes and lots of rhyming
         
Used to hope f

or better days

 whenever

nights would have me crying
         
I'm not lying 

when I say tha

t I would rath

er die than go

 back

To the times I

 would try be 

the guy the pe

ople know
       
I was fighting

 with the demo

ns hiding far 

beyond my eyel

ids
       
On an island f

ull of violenc

e in my head I

 had two pilot

s
            
Oh, the sun do

              
n't shine, the

             
 skies turn gr

ay
              
I feel it cour

              
sing through m

   
y veins
              
I said before 

         
I'm not okay
              
But you don't 

          
listen anyway
              
You know I tri

              
ed, you turned

   
 away
              
You straight u

             
p lied right t

      
o my face
              
You fucked my 

              
life, ruined m

    
y day

But you don't know, so I'll say


[Bridge]
            
Nothing can fi

              
ll this silenc

  
e, no one can 

love like I di

d
(You don't know so I'll say)
             
Nobody cares, 

             
you lied, it's

 not fair, you

 still deny it
(So I'll say)
            
Nothing can fi

              
ll this silenc

  
e, no one can 

love like I di

d
(You don't know so I'll say)
             
Nobody cares, 

             
you lied, it's

 not fair, you

 still deny it
(So I'll say)


[Chorus]
 
Girl, I hope y

ou understand
 
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

              
ur man back th

  
en

Too bad I know

 I can't wake 

up
           
Because I lost

 my way and yo

u don't give a

 fuck
             
About me, this

              
 could be a dr

              
eam, I can't s

 
ee

The things that you see, so please, oh

 
Girl, I hope y

ou understand
 
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

              
ur man back th

  
en

You had known 

and played alo

ng, you

Were my home, 

I wrote you so

ngs
            
Now you're dea

d to me, effec

tively
   
Removed yourse

lf outside my 

dreams