[Chorus]

Girl, I hope y

ou understand
  
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

            
ur man back th

    
en
    
And you knew I

 fell for you 

but you

Just broke my 

heart in two
      
I was sad, mad

, and broken o

n my bed

Hoping I get r

id of all the 

voices in my h

ead


[Verse 1]

I was opening 

a packet of an

 undeveloped m

ed

When I was met

 with a prescr

iption of a bu

llet made of l

ead

And when I wok

e up in an hou

r in a pool of

 my own sweat
            
I said, "I swe

              
ar to God I'll

              
 never even tr

     
y to sleep aga

in"

So instead I t

ook my pen and

 started writi

ng evidence

And whеn I sta

rted making se

nse

I found that I had rеached the end
    
Oh, I'm upset,

 I have no fri

ends

You wanna bet you're just pretend?
              
You're just a 

            
pet confined w

              
ithin the line

     
s of writing

You're not shit
           
I thought I st

              
opped my psych

        
opathic ways, 

I swear I did
              
I said I talke

             
d to people 'b

              
out the proble

            
matic life I l

    
ived
             
They were my n

#
eighbors, razo

r blades
              
And different 


flavored pills

 I hate
              
Therefore I'm 


not sure, leav

e my last stra

w
            
I'm so glad, s

              
tuck in the pa

    
st, I said tha

t


[Chorus]

Girl, I hope y

ou understand
  
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

            
ur man back th

  
en
    
And so far I n

ever held you 

with my arms
   
So it's hard t

o be the one y

ou aren't

With instead f

illed with anx

iety
            
Always was a p

           
art of me, gue

ss I'm not cut

 out to be


[Verse 2]

Somebody 'caus

e it's not me
              
I'm not used t

              
o all the talk

            
, it was an in

trovert

That had converted feelings into writing
        
Used to cope w

ith all my pro

blems

Using notes and lots of rhyming
            
Used to hope f

              
or better days

          
 whenever nigh

ts would have 

me crying
        
I'm not lying 

when I say tha

t I would rath

er daily go ba

ck
       
To the times I

 would try be 

the guy the pe

ople know

I was fighting

 with the demo

ns hiding far 

beyond my eyel

ids
            
On an island f

              
ull of violenc

        
e in my head t

hat I could pi

lot
           
Oh, the sun do

              
n't shine, the

              
 skies turn gr

  
ay
              
I felt it cour

              
sing through m

       
y veins
              
I said before 

            
I'm not okay
        
But you don't 

listen anyway

You know I tri

ed, you turned

 away

You straight u

p lied right t

o my face

You fucked my 

life, ruined m

y day
            
But you don't 

              
know, so I'll 

   
say

[Refrain]
           
Nothing can fi

              
ll this silenc

   
e, no one can 

love like I di

d

(You don't know, so I'll say)
             
Nobody cares, 

              
you lied, it's

            
 no fair, you 


still deny it

(So I'll say)
           
Nothing can fi

              
ll this silenc

   
e, no one can 

love like I di

d

(You don't know, so I'll say)
             
Nobody cares, 

              
you lied, it's

            
 no fair, you 


still deny it

(So I'll say)


[Chorus]

Girl, I hope y

ou understand
  
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

            
ur man back th

  
en
    
And too bad I 

know I can't w

ake up
        
Because I lost

 my weight and

 you don't giv

e a fuck
             
About me, this

              
 could be a dr

             
eam, I can't s


ee
    
The things tha

t you see, so 

please, oh

Girl, I hope y

ou understand
  
I wanted to ho

ld your hand
             
But I can't, w

              
anted to be yo

            
ur man back th

  
en
    
And you know I

'll play along
    
You were my ho

me, I wrote yo

u songs
        
And now you're

 dead to me ef

fectively
            
Removed yourse

   
lf outside my 

dreams